“You are worth loving. You are worthy of love.”

The Bridegroom-King

L.I.F.E. is my personal journey of how I went from living under a dark cloud of despair and depression due to trauma, (childhood abandonment, addiction, sexual, mental, emotional, physical and spiritual abuse) to receiving freedom and choosing joy, everyday.

This is the space where I record special dates, memories, miracles, prophetic words and heart-to-heart conversations between Papa God and I.

This page is honest, vulnerable and transparent–that’s how I choose to live life. My prayer is that my personal victories will encourage you to live in the beauty of freedom, everyday.

I have placed my hand in His to begin the lifelong journey of allowing Jesus to love me.

Who is this one? Look at her now!
She arises out of her desert, clinging to her beloved.
When I awakened you under the apple tree,
as you were feasting upon me,
I awakened your innermost being with the travail of birth
as you longed for more of me.
6 Fasten me upon your heart as a seal of fire forevermore.
This living, consuming flame
will seal you as my prisoner of love.
My passion is stronger
than the chains of death and the grave,
all consuming as the very flashes of fire
from the burning heart of God.
Place this fierce, unrelenting fire over your entire being.
7 Rivers of pain and persecution
will never extinguish this flame.
Endless floods will be unable
to quench this raging fire that burns within you.
Everything will be consumed.
It will stop at nothing
as you yield everything to this furious fire
until it won’t even seem to you like a sacrifice anymore.

Song of Songs 8:5-7 The Passion Translation (TPT)

For so long the cry of my heart has been, Jesus, I love you! One day He awakened me. He showed me how I was not receiving His love for me. In me crying out to Him, and loving on Him, I had not opened my heart to receive His love for me. Why? I did not believe I was worth loving. I did not believe I deserved His love. I thought it was enough for me to love on Him, but I did not allow Him to love on me.

His words have awakened my heart to receive. Each time He speaks of His love for me, I am overwhelmed that He could love me so much. As I sit and breathe in His words of truth to me, I choose to rest in His love and just receive. My heart has been awakened.

♡ Shawnee D