Hey friends,
Today, I just want to share a bit of what’s been on my heart. Over the past week, I’ve been reflecting on why I’ve felt so weary—why the pouring out on social media for the month of February has left me feeling so low. And I think I’m starting to see it more clearly.
In February, I started posting my self-love journey on social media, which started out as being for myself—to dig deeper into loving the woman I’ve become. But somewhere along the way, my motives shifted. I found myself wanting to grow, to gain followers, to see the fruit of all that effort. When I didn’t, the weight of disappointment hit me hard. MY DOING produced NOTHING (which I’m glad that it didn’t because it taught me a lesson). And that’s when the fatigue set in—not just physical tiredness, but a soul-level exhaustion.
I listened to a podcast today by Aaron Abke and Kyle Cease titled Effort Doesn’t Work Anymore. As I listened, I felt something inside me exhale—like a reminder that all the striving, all the doing, isn’t where life comes from.
It’s Presence.
Not presence in the sense of simply being in a room, but Presence with a capital P—the kind where you’re rooted and grounded in Love, fully aware of your connection to something bigger and greater than yourself. When I was in that state of being, words flowed effortlessly, reflections poured out, and everything felt alive. It wasn’t forced or scripted—it was simply the overflow of being in tune with Love, with Spirit.
But somewhere along the way, I slipped back into old patterns—striving, doing, trying to make things happen in my own strength. And that’s where the frustration was coming from. Because my soul was never meant to strive. Neither was yours.
That deep fatigue, the frustration you might feel at times—that could be your soul’s way of saying, This isn’t where you’re meant to live. It could be Love inviting you to return to the flow, to Presence, to being.
I wrote this in my journal today:
“Have you ever felt as if you were created for MORE? That deep knowing and burning inside that there must be more to where I am currently—more to who I am than my current truth or understanding? I believe that is my higher self trying to get my attention—to get me to notice, dig deeper, or awaken to the truth of who Love created me to be.”
Maybe that’s what’s been pulling at you too—the longing to live from being instead of doing, from flow instead of striving. And maybe that’s why the old ways of doing aren’t working anymore.
So, here’s to returning to Presence. To living from being. To letting Love lead.
If you’ve been feeling that pull too—let’s walk this out together. You’re not alone. ♡
—LaShawn