Awakening

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Pt. 2 Rediscovering God – Unlearning Old Beliefs

Deconstructing Fear – Walking in Truth and Overcoming Deception

Starting my awakening journey was both empowering and frightening. I had been taught to fear deception, constantly on guard against being led astray. The notion that “even the very elect could be deceived” loomed over me, making me question if my path was right or if I was walking into a trap.

Trusting God’s Guidance over Fear

In 2015, Love whispered to me, assuring me that Truth would be revealed to me little by little, guiding me at a pace I could handle. Throughout this journey I am reminded that Love is more powerful than any fear, and I didn’t need to live in constant worry of being deceived. This journey has taught me to trust that Truth is greater than deception and that Love and Truth are stronger than any lies.

The Power of Community

Having a community of others on similar journeys has been invaluable. I’ve found strength in walking alongside others who are asking the same questions, validating my experiences, and challenging me to dig deeper. Together, we’ve been able to move past the fear of “getting it wrong” and step into the freedom of asking questions.

Conclusion

If you’re deconstructing beliefs rooted in fear, know that Love welcomes your questions. Love is not afraid of them, and Love delights in revealing truth in a way that brings freedom, not fear. You’re not alone, and there’s strength in embracing the journey one step at a time.

Reflection

• Are there fears you hold in your faith journey—such as fear of “getting it wrong” or being deceived? Take some time to consider where these fears might stem from.

• How does it feel to think of God as Love, a guide who walks patiently with you, rather than a distant figure waiting for you to make a mistake?

• What questions have you been afraid to ask about your faith? Give yourself permission to ask those questions and trust that God, who is Love, welcomes them.

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Pt. 3 Rediscovering God – Unlearning Old Beliefs

Judgment to Compassion – Learning to Love People on Their Unique Journeys

As my understanding of God and myself has deepened, so has my compassion for others. I used to be highly judgmental, a reflection of the harsh judgment I placed on myself. But as I’ve let go of self-judgment, I’ve found my heart softening toward the people around me.

Seeing People Through Love’s Eyes

I now realize that everyone is on their own unique path with God. Just as He walks with me, revealing truth and guiding me through my questions, Love does the same for others. Who am I to judge their journey? God created each of us, and He doesn’t abandon anyone for being “too far gone.” He’s a God who loves unconditionally, no matter where we are in life.

A New Perspective on Love and Acceptance

This journey has given me a new love for humanity. I’ve come to see people not through the lens of their beliefs or actions, but through the lens of Love. It’s a shift that’s allowed me to embrace people as they are, recognizing that they are, like me, on a path of growth and discovery.

Conclusion

If you’ve struggled with judgment toward yourself or others, remember that we’re all on a unique journey, and Love is with each of us, guiding and loving us along the way. When we release judgment, we open ourselves to a deeper love and acceptance that reflects God’s heart for humanity.

Reflection

• Reflect on your own journey and how it has shaped who you are. How might seeing your journey as unique help you to view others’ journeys with compassion?

• Are there areas where you feel judgment—toward yourself or others? Consider ways to release these judgments and embrace acceptance, trusting that Love is present in everyone’s path.

• How does recognizing that God, (who is the very Being of Love) created everyone in his image and likeness impact your perspective on others?

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Pt. 4 Rediscovering God – Unlearning Old Beliefs

Redefining Purpose – Discovering the Freedom to Live Fully Each Day

For so long, I believed that purpose was a single, monumental task—something I was created to accomplish in life. I thought that when I found that “one thing,” I’d finally feel fulfilled. But over time, I’ve realized that purpose isn’t about a specific role, job, or destination. It’s not something I have to chase; it’s something I carry within me every day.

Purpose as Who We Are, Not What We Do

Purpose isn’t a destination or achievement. It’s who I am at my core. It’s woven into the very fabric of my being, reflecting Love’s divine design. I’ve learned that purpose is about being true to who God created me to be—loving, encouraging, and uplifting others. This revelation has shifted my perspective, showing me that I can live in purpose every day, no matter where I am, no matter what situation or circumstance presents itself nothing has the power to stop me from being who I am.

Finding Fulfillment in Every Season

There was a time when I felt unfulfilled in my work, feeling like it lacked purpose. But I now understand that wherever I am, there’s purpose in it simply because I’m there. Each season and every space I occupy has meaning. I no longer feel the need to reach some far-off destination to feel purposeful. Instead, I can live fully in the present–embodying the love, kindness, and encouragement I was created to bring, just by being…me.

The Freedom of Walking in Purpose Daily

Embracing purpose as part of my identity has been incredibly freeing. I no longer wait for the “perfect” job, title, or calling to feel fulfilled. I can wake up each day knowing that by simply being who I am, I’m walking in purpose. This understanding has lifted the pressure to search for purpose outside myself, allowing me to find beauty and fulfillment in every moment.

Conclusion

If you’re feeling lost or unfulfilled, know that purpose isn’t a distant goal—it’s part of who you are. God has designed you with love and intention, and as you embrace your unique qualities and live authentically, you’ll find that purpose flows naturally from you. Each day holds the potential for purpose when we understand that it’s not something to achieve, but something to live.

Reflection

• Think about times when you’ve felt pressured to “find” your purpose. How would it feel to view purpose as something that flows from who you are, rather than something to achieve?

• Where are you right now in life, and what unique qualities can you bring to this season? Reflect on how you can live in purpose by being true to yourself, regardless of external roles or titles.

• Consider how redefining purpose in this way might free you from waiting for fulfillment and allow you to experience purpose daily.

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Love & Light: Our Core Connection

For years, phrases like love and light have been labeled as New Age, misunderstood, or even feared as “demonic” by some. There’s this idea that speaking of love or light outside a traditional religious context is somehow wrong or dangerous. But here’s what doesn’t add up: how can anything rooted in true love or genuine light ever be associated with darkness?

Let’s make this make sense.

Darkness cannot be light. By definition, light illuminates, it reveals, and it breaks through even the thickest shadows. Love, real love, doesn’t hide—it shines; it frees; it brings us closer to one another and to God. Darkness cannot spread love, because darkness exists in separation and isolation, while Love unites, heals, and transforms. So, if we believe in the one who is Love, who is Light, then love and light cannot come from darkness. They can only come from the source of all that is good.

In my own journey, I’ve come to see that love and light are more than words; they are the essence of God, the language of divine connection with humanity. Jesus’ teachings were about living as love, walking as light—bringing hope, peace, and grace into the world. Love and Light are part of our original design, the “language” through which we connect back to God, and they are not something to be feared.

For me, Christianity isn’t about a rigid set of rules; it’s a way of living that embodies Love in action, Light in the darkness. It’s not about converting people to a label or ideology but being a reflection of Love itself. To live in Love and walk in Light is to embody the teachings of Jesus—not as a religion, but as a language of relationship, a language of Love.

So when I say Love and Light, it’s not about following trends or adopting “New Age” language. It’s about calling us back to the simplicity and beauty of what God is: Love that never fails, Light that no darkness can overcome. These words don’t belong to any movement or label; they belong to the Creator. And if someone’s view of Christianity or spirituality excludes love, kindness, or compassion, then I believe they’re missing the very heart of it all.

To those who misunderstand, I ask: how can Light come from darkness, or Love from hate? It’s not possible. Love and Light are pure, they’re whole, and they belong to God. Darkness cannot create them; only the One who is both Love and Light can.

Embracing Love and Light with Open Hearts

When we encounter things we don’t understand, it’s easy to react with fear or judgment. Sometimes, we’re quick to label what’s unfamiliar as “demonic” or “deception.” But perhaps, instead of running from every shadow, we’re invited to lean deeper into the heart of God, the heart of Love. Maybe there’s something beautiful waiting when we choose to see through the eyes of Love rather than fear.

Sometimes, what looks like a looming shadow is really something small—just enlarged by the way the Light hits it. When we pause, ask questions, and draw near to God (Love), we often find that what we feared was not darkness but simply an invitation to see from a new perspective. May we learn to approach the unknown with curiosity and trust, embracing and releasing Love and Light as we were always meant to.

Reflection Questions:

1. When I encounter something unfamiliar or challenging, do I respond with fear or with curiosity? How might approaching it with God’s perspective change the way I see it?

2. What are some areas in my life where I’ve labeled things as “dark” or “wrong” without seeking to understand them? Could there be an invitation to see them from a new angle?

3. How can I embody Love and Light more openly in my own life, trusting that God is guiding me in each moment?

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Honoring Peace Over Pressure

Growing up, I was taught that “your word is your bond.” I believed integrity meant keeping every promise, following through no matter what. I’ve lived by that rule, pushing myself to fulfill commitments, even when something inside me felt off. But over time, I’ve come to recognize that life changes, situations evolve, and sometimes, the commitment we made in one season doesn’t fit into the next.

Recognizing the Red Flags

More and more, I realize the importance of honoring my inner “no,” even when I’ve already said “yes.” There have been countless times I felt those inner alarms—the subtle unease, the red flags waving within, telling me, “This isn’t for you.” 🚩 Yet I often pushed past those feelings, eager to support someone else’s vision or to make others happy, believing that if I could see the beauty of what they were creating, then surely, I could join in. But I’ve learned that not everything that’s beautiful is meant for me to be a part of, and ignoring those signals never ends well.

Balancing Enthusiasm with Inner Peace

Sometimes, in the excitement of the moment, I’ve said yes out of a genuine desire to help others bring their dreams to life. But I’ve come to understand that my heart’s “yes” and my mind’s agreement must be in sync for my commitment to flow from peace rather than pressure. When we force ourselves to fulfill promises that no longer feel right, we bypass our own boundaries—those internal safeguards meant to protect our well-being and honor our own journey.

The Freedom to Reconsider

One moment that sticks with me was a conversation with my dad. I had committed to something that no longer felt right, but I was torn. I didn’t want to disappoint anyone, yet I felt burdened by a promise that no longer aligned with my energy and priorities. My dad’s words helped me see that I don’t have to hold onto commitments out of sheer obligation. It’s okay to choose peace over pressure, to reconsider and honor where I am now, rather than where I was when I first made that promise.

Offering Others the Same Grace

Recently, I reached out to a friend who had once offered to help with something, and I made it clear that she had full freedom to decline. I didn’t want her to feel bound by a commitment she made in a different season. This experience reminded me of how vital it is to give ourselves and others that same grace. It’s freeing to realize that our “yes” is most powerful when it comes from a place of joy and alignment—not a sense of duty or fear of disappointing others.

Serving from a Place of Integrity

The truth is, when we ignore our inward boundaries, we end up exhausted, frustrated, and unable to show up fully in the areas where we’re genuinely called. Choosing to honor our inner peace doesn’t make us selfish or unkind; it allows us to serve from a place of integrity, where each commitment is intentional, and each “no” is filled with love and respect.

Reflection & Prayer

Take a moment to pause and reflect on your commitments. Are there any you’ve made that no longer align with your current season or reality? Do you feel at peace about them, or is there a gentle nudge inviting you to reconsider?

Prayer: Love, help me walk in integrity, not just with others but with myself. Teach me to listen to my heart, to know when to lean in and when to step back. Grant me the courage to release commitments that no longer bring peace, and the wisdom to make decisions rooted in joy and authenticity. May I serve from a place of freedom, not pressure, and may each choice I make reflect the love You have placed within me.

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Let Love In

Love whispers to my heart, “You are worthy of love. You are worth loving.”

As I place my heart in Love’s hand, I begin this journey. This is just the beginning of allowing Love to truly love me. Love awakened me with the sound of a gentle voice, saying, “You are worthy of love. You are worth loving.” These words penetrated the depths of my heart, melting away the lies of fear and shame.

For years, the cry of my heart has been, “God, I love you!” Then one day, Love gently whispered to me: Allow Me to love you. I had never thought about allowing Love to love me. I assumed, as long as I loved God, that was enough, that’s what He wanted.

In that moment, I saw how I hadn’t opened my heart to receive Love fully. Why? I didn’t feel worthy of such love. I didn’t believe I deserved Love’s care, but Love let me know, I do.

The beauty of these words has awakened my heart. Each time Love speaks of deep affection for me, I am completely overwhelmed and undone by how I could be loved so beautifully—so completely.

Reflection

As I sit back and reflect on the day Love spoke these words to my heart, I can see now why it was so transformative. My upbringing taught me to see God as a distant, fearsome figure in the sky, always watching and ready to condemn. Love wasn’t part of that picture. But over the past nine years, I’ve seen how Love has been gently drawing me back to the truth of who He is—and who He created me to be before time began. Little by little, I am awakening to the beauty of my true identity.

It is my prayer that if you, too, were raised with a view of God as harsh and condemning, that Love will gently whisper truth to your heart. May you find yourself open to letting Love in.

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You Know Me

Close my eyes

Inhale each word

Ponder the truth

You…

Know…

Me…

I was planned before time began

Your plan unfolds with each new day

You…

Know…

Me…

Reflection

As I sat still, embracing the quiet, a sense of knowing washed over me—a reminder that I am seen, known, and deeply loved. Before anyone else knew me, Love knew me fully.

In that moment of stillness, I felt Love’s presence enfold me, filling every part of my heart and mind. I knew, with a peace that words can’t capture, that I am never alone. Love surrounds me—both within and around. This is the truth I return to when the world feels overwhelming or I need a reminder of my worth: Love is unwavering, Love’s knowing is infinite.

This experience brought to mind the words of Psalm 139 (TPT):

“Lord, you know everything there is to know about me. You perceive every movement of my heart and soul, and you understand my every thought before it even enters my mind.”

Each of us can draw close to this truth, feeling secure and known even in the midst of unknown moments. My prayer is that this reflection will encourage you to take a few moments today to close your eyes, breathe, and remember—you, too, are fully known and deeply loved by the One who created you.

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Believe Again

It is beautiful how God has done everything at the right time. He has put a sense of eternity in people’s minds. Yet, mortals still can’t grasp what God is doing from the beginning to the end of time. Ecclesiastes 3:11 GW

It may seem impossible at this moment. But it’s not. It may appear as though things are not moving forward. But they are. You may even feel like things will never change. But they will! Be encouraged dear one, hold on. Change is closer than you know. 

Continue to believe in all I’ve spoken to your heart. You hear me, you know my voice, you’re not far off. You’re not just daydreaming or wishful thinking. You will see the reality of the vision, mission and destiny I weaved into the very fabric of your being. Believe again! 

I know that’s easier said than done. You don’t have to believe alone. Lean in and trust my direction, one step at a time. Allow the people I’ve strategically places in your circle to be your support system. Allow them to run with you and cheer you on as you watch your dreams come alive —in my divine timing.

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Deep Cries Out

Purify my heart, Purify my desires, May my desire be for You, Jesus, alone…

I hear, “Deep calls unto deep, I AM calling to you, coooome, come closer, let’s go deep. There is so much more, come.”

I close my eyes, absorbing His words. {Visual} A deep well within me—a well that God calls me to draw from. I realized I am not the well; rather, the well of Living Water resides within me. There’s a divine invitation, a beckoning to go deeper in Him, to plunge into the depths of His love.

This revelation unfolded during a sacred moment at Risen Nation in Keller, Texas, on Monday, 11.13.23, at 6:27 AM. As I penned down these thoughts, the atmosphere resonated with another voice in prayer, proclaiming, “You could be anything, and You chose to be Love!” In response, I couldn’t help but exclaim, “Wow, so good!” The repetition of those words— “You could be ANYTHING and YOU chose to be LOVE!”—resonates deeply within me, reigniting the flame in my heart.

Reflecting on this experience as I sit here tonight, typing these words, I felt compelled to ensure that everything in my journal originated from the divine encounter and not merely borrowed from a song. A quick search confirmed that the words were indeed a gift from God during my time in the prayer room.

However, the journey took an unexpected turn when I stumbled upon a beautiful song by Jeremy Riddle. Here’s the YouTube link.

Although this is a journal entry of a personal encounter I had with Jesus, this experience is not exclusive to me alone. Jesus extends the same invitation to each of us. He beckons, not only to me but to all, to draw closer, to venture deeper into that sacred secret place in His presence.

He is calling, inviting us individually and collectively, to come closer, to experience the depths of His love. It’s an intimate call, resonating beyond my personal encounter, reaching out to everyone to discover that sacred secret place in His divine presence.

There’s a constant invitation to step into My presence. I’m always here, waiting, attentive, and alert. I never turn away those who seek to come closer. That burning desire within you—to draw near—it’s My gift to you. I’m calling out to you, urging you to come.

Resist the pull to forge your own path. Push back against the distractions clamoring for attention. I am the whisper deep within, saying, “Come, My dear one. Come, My beloved. Draw closer to Me.” I am earnestly calling out to you.

Resist the allure of diverging paths and the distractions that clamor. In the stillness of your soul, hear My voice—the whisper that echoes, “Come to our secret place, the place you’ve longed for. Beloved, be still, come rest.”

This latter part was released tonight by Holy Spirit 12.31.23 @6:54 PM (CST)

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A Father’s Love

Look with wonder at the depth of the Father’s marvelous love that he has lavished on us! He has called us and made us his very own beloved children.” – 1 John 3:1 tPt

In the quiet moments, she gazes into the bathroom mirror, a smile on her lips. Her heart swells with gratitude for the journey of self-love she’s embraced. Whispers escape with her smile, “Papa, thank You for the beauty of Your love.”

A Father’s love holds transformative power. In the presence of a healthy father, a little girl discovers a love that echoes through her life. This love becomes a lens through which she perceives herself. Unfazed by societal standards or others’ opinions, she learns to see herself through the tender eyes of her loving father.

Recently, my self-perception underwent a profound shift. No weight was lost, no makeup adorned my face, and no drastic changes altered my appearance. What changed was my acceptance of my Father’s love. His words of acceptance, love, and affirmation echoed in my heart, and I embraced them fully. No longer do I shy away or deny my true identity. Through the lens of my loving Papa, I see the unfiltered truth of who I am.

{Visual} A little girl around the age of five, with curly ponytails, and a pink checkered dress twirling freely.

As I pondered on this visual, a profound connection resonated with words of healing and restoration spoken by Papa a few years ago: ‘I am healing you from the abuse you suffered, and I will restore your innocence.’

Thank you, Papa, for your unwavering love. Through your love, my eyes have been opened, allowing me to love myself freely.

Originally written June 28, 2020 at 1:57 pm